I'm sorry

I’m sorry.

I’m sorry I don’t have the most perfect skin.
I’m sorry I don’t look like a Victoria Secrets model
I’m sorry I don’t have the best style.
I’m sorry I’m not tall.
I’m sorry I’m not perfectly skinny- 5’7 nor 100 pounds.
I’m sorry I have stretch marks here and there.
I’m sorry I have bad hijab days.
I’m sorry that I’m plain.
I’m sorry my eyebrows aren’t thin and perfectly trimmed.
I’m sorry my face isn’t caked in make-up.
I’m sorry that I can never meet society’s standards.

But you know what?
I don’t need to care about society’s criteria.
I don’t need people to tell me I’m beautiful.
I don’t need compliments to make me feel better.
I don’t need a superficial love that can’t withstand a stretch mark here or chub there.
I don’t need to keep sinking into a never ending pit of low self-esteem.
Because I looked to Allah, and He told me the perfect recipe to be Beautiful.
Not just temporarily, but forever.

“And the servants of the Most Merciful are those who walk upon the earth easily, and when the ignorant address them [harshly], they say [words of] peace,…” [25:63]

“And [they are] those who, when they spend, do so not excessively or sparingly but are ever, between that, [justly] moderate {25:67]

“And he who repents and does righteousness does indeed turn to Allah with [accepted] repentance. And [they are] those who do not testify to falsehood, and when they pass near ill speech, they pass by with dignity. And those who, when reminded of the verses of their Lord, do not fall upon them deaf and blind. And those who say, “Our Lord, grant us from among our wives and offspring comfort to our eyes and make us an example for the righteous.” Those will be awarded the Chamber for what they patiently endured, and they will be received therein with greetings and [words of] peace.” [25:71-75]

Ya Allah, when the world criticizes me a million times over
Ya Allah, when the world keeps telling me hurtful things
Ya Allah, when the world keeps pushing “ugly” at me.
Give me the courage to hold firm to your Deen.
Ya Allah, as long as I am beautiful to you, nothing else matters.

Ya Allah, even when everyone leaves my side, let me take comfort in the fact that
You are closer to me than my jugular vein [50:16]


(reblogged#Islamicthinking)

A reminder to self

TOUGH LOVE

your life is not a song, a story, a TV show or a movie. Your life is your life. Live it instead of playing a part in it. Don’t let yourself fall prey to ideas of romantic, sensationalist rhetoric. Life is not about love or money or fame, life is about making the right choices and coming closer to God. Recalibrate your soul towards God and stop worrying about fairy tales and fame.


(reblogged#islamicthinking)

Surah - surah pilihan

Oh, saya jumpe info ini di facebook, kat wall kawan saya, Semuga ianya memberi kemanfaatan pada kita semua……

Dikatakan :-

۞ Surah Al-Fatihah dapat memadam kemurkaan Allah SWT.

۞ Surah Yasin dapat menghilangkan rasa dahaga atau kehausan pada hari Kiamat.

۞ Surah Dukhan dapat membantu kita ketika menghadapi ujian Allah SWT pada hari kiamat.

۞ Surah Al-Waqi’ah dapat melindungi kita daripada ditimpa kesusahan atau fakir.

۞ Surah Al-Mulk dapat meringankan azab di dalam kubur.

۞ Surah Al-Kauthar dapat merelaikan segala perbalahan.

۞ Surah Al-Kafirun dapat menghalang kita daripada menjadi kafir ketika menghadapi kematian.

۞ Surah Al-Ikhlas dapat melindungi kita daripada menjadi golongan munafiq.

۞ Surah Al-Falq dapat menghapuskan perasaan hasad dengki.

۞ Surah An-Nas dapat melindungi kita daripada ditimpa penyakit was-was.

Seterusnya, bagi menangani Syaitan Durjana, dikatakan juga:-

۞ Ketika anda membawa AL-QURAN, respon syaitan ialah biasa saja, tengok je...

۞ Ketika anda membukanya, syaitan mula curiga.

۞ Ketika anda membacanya, syaitan mula gelisah.

۞ Ketika anda memahaminya, dia mula kejang.

۞ Ketika anda mengamalkan AL-QURAN, dalam kehidupan setiap hari, dia stroke....

Teruskan membaca AL-QURAN dan mengamalkannya agar syaitan terus stroke.

Selamat beramal... :)

Life as it is.

Life?
Has life been treating u bad?
Well I have learned a few things about life as I grow older... let's go straight to what I think I have learned so far; at least from my point of view lah..

1.Whenever you help anyone, never ever expect them to remember it for the rest of their life or even help u back, just be sincere when helping... so hopefully u won't get hurt whenever u think of what u have done for them...

2.Be independent; don't expect people to do things for you, u will get frustrated honey.

3.Friends are friends, they have other things in their minds too, so don't expect them to always be there for you... please understand that..and of course sometimes they also talk about you behind your back whether you like it or not, that's normal especially when they have something against u..

4.People say the truth whenever they are angry, it's just that u r not supposed to hear it that frank, it will be better when they are sane because they will be able to say it in the nicest way possible..harsh world eh? heheheh

5.Whenever you think people don't like you, probably they think u don't like them too, and I think that is because when we think people don't like us, we tend to avoid them and they; by looking at the way u r trying to avoid them will think that u don't like them so that's why it will never be better between u and them, so what can we do? don't bother about what people think of us, just treat everybody with a sincere heart! <<< i know its hard but let's try together! :)

6. Whenever u find a friend who is always afraid of this type of people or that type of people it is because they are that type of people!...well maybe this does not apply to everyone.. there are some who behave like this because they have been treated badly, oh pity them kan?


These are all that I can think of today, maybe if I get to add a few more, I'll make another entry..heheh



p/s: so the moral of the story is? Life it self is not bad, its the people dude!

MEAN MOMS

Someday when my children are old enough to
understand the logic that motivates a parent,
I will tell them, as my Mean Mom told me:
‘I loved you enough to ask where you were going,
with whom, and what time you would be home.

I loved you enough to be silent and let you
discover that your new best friend was a creep.

I loved you enough to stand over you for
two hours while you cleaned your room,
a job that should have taken 15 minutes.

I loved you enough to let you see anger,
disappointment, and tears in my eyes.

Children must learn that their parents aren’t perfect..

I loved you enough to let you assume the
responsibility for your actions even when the
penalties were so harsh they almost broke my heart.

But most of all, I loved you enough to say
NO when I knew you would hate me for it.

Those were the most difficult battles of all.
I’m glad I won them, because in the end you won, too.
And someday when your children are old enough to
understand the logic that motivates parents, you will tell them.

Was your Mom mean?

I know mine was.
We had the meanest mother in the whole world!
While other kids ate candy for breakfast,
we had to have cereal, eggs, and toast.

When others had a Coca Cola and chips for lunch,
we had to eat home cooked meals.

And you can guess our mother fixed us a dinner that was
different from what other kids had, too.

Mother insisted on knowing where we were at all times.
You’d think we were convicts in a prison.

She had to know who our friends were
and what we were doing with them.
She insisted that if we said we
would be gone for an hour, we would be gone for an hour or less.

We were ashamed to admit it,
but she had the nerve to break
the Child Labor Laws by making us work.

We had to wash the dishes, make the beds,
learn to cook, vacuum the floor, do laundry,
empty the trash and all sorts of cruel
jobs.
I think she would lie awake at night
thinking of more things for us to do.

She always insisted on us telling the truth,
the whole truth, and nothing but the truth.
By the time we were teenagers,
she could read our minds
and had eyes in the back of her head.
Then, life was really tough!

Mother wouldn’t let our friends just hoot at the gate
when they drove up
They had to come up to the door
so she could meet them.


Because of our mother we missed out
on lots of things other kids experienced.

None of us have ever
been caught shoplifting, vandalizing other people’s
property or ever arrested for any crime.
It was all her fault.

Now that we have left home, we are all educated, honest adults.
We are doing our best to be mean parents just like Mom was.

I think that is what’s wrong with the world today.
It just doesn’t have enough mean moms!’

PASS THIS ON TO ALL THE MEAN MOTHERS YOU KNOW.
(And Their Kids)@islamic thinking


p/s: without my mean mother, i wouldn't become what i am today...Thank God for her...

'Pelamin' Aqiqah

wo wo wo, sekarang ni bukan main.. kalau dulu org kawen je ada pelamin... sekarang ni org buat aqiqah anak pun ada 'pelamin ok'... ahkak mcm tak percaya tgk ( tau la wa tak up to date bab bab ni..hehehe ) ... hebat u... kelas la org sekarang, dulu time kite, cukur rambut baby, mak bidan balut guna kain batik je... mak dia tak pakai baju glem glem.. pakai dlm pantang je, jeles betul ahkak ok... dah la dulu masa ahkak kawen, ayah ahkak tak kasi sanding...kempunan pelamin betull tauuu...heheh... ( macam la akak kawen time dolu2, akak kawen tahun milenium ok..!)


tgk la ni gamba anak sedara ahkak aqiqah.... comel kan kan kan?

p/s :munge telor tu pun dia buatkan tauu, kalau ada sape sape yg suka, nanti boleh la mintak org tu buatkan, yg bestnya dia sanggup dtg ke seluruh malaysia... hebat betullah.....masyukkkkk...( ok, wa takde komisen dlm iklan free ini tauu)

Thank U Allah s.w.t

found this in Islamic Thinking..

Home is where the heart is?

It's time to go home, finally...

I'm not sure whether this actually holds the connotation of happiness like it always does to other people when it's time to balik kampung... or in my case balik my own country...
Well I do have mixed feelings about this..but it is more of a sad feeling.

It's weird actually if you think about this fadang fasir country.. there's nothing here, no entertainment at all; no cinema, no bowling alleys, no karaoke, no eating without segregating between man and women unless of course you are related..well no driving for women, no fancy clothes you get to show off, only black abayas.. and there are so much more to list down...

but somehow I feel calm here, I'm at my own pace, collected, and how I magically feel that God is very near! I know, I know, God is always near wherever we are but that's why I said magically!I feel it here!

I don't want to go home.
but I do love Malaysia, It has everything, my parents are there, my siblings, my friends, better schools, better environment but too hectic! Too many things to think about. It's not that I want to run away from my responsibilities, it's not!..It is just too hectic that we do not get to spend time alone quietly...
well I just don't know how to explain..

I just want to say;
Good bye Saudi and friends,
I wish this is not the last time.... that this is not my final exit..
I wish I will be 'invited' again...
but for now, goodbye!

To a dear friend

I'm not good with words therefore I've chosen these three poems especially to sum up how I feel and what I want her to know...

You know who you are...

1)

2)
Thanks for being my friend
by Cara

I don’t think you know what you mean to me
But you mean a lot
The chance of us not being friends
Is a real long shot

I hate when you’re sad
I love it when you’re happy
Because if you are upset
It makes me feel crappy

Thanks for always be there
When I needed you most
If it weren’t for you the chances of me not being here
Would have really come close

I don’t know what I would do
If you weren’t my friend
I don’t think my heart
Would ever mend

I hope you know I always have your back
Just like you’ve had mine
And it will always stay that way
Until the end of time

We’ll be friends
Hopefully without end
So I just wanna say thanks
Thanks for being my friend

3)
May our friendship last forever
by Nicholas Gordon


May our friendship last forever;
May I sail upon your sea.
May we go through life together;
May there always be a "we."
May I be your endless sky;
May you breathe my gentle air.
May you never wonder why
Each time you look for me, I'm there.

May we be for each other a smile
Like the warm, life-giving sun;
Yet when we're in pain for a while,
May our suffering be one.

May we share our special days,
The happiness of one for two;
And if we must go our separate ways,
Let my love remain with you.

Mari bershopping!

Korang dah beli baju2 raya untuk raya tahun ni? agaknya apa la theme colour eh..?
Haishh teringinnya nak tgk baju fashion apa la tahun ni kat Malaysia..
Kitorang kat sini jangan harap la nak tgk fashion kurung or kebaya terbaru di pasaran...bazar ramadhan pun takde.. hehe takpe tapi kak senah dah bukak bazar ramadhan sendiri je kat dapor tu.. apa nak order, maggi? buah2? juice buah? sume dah ado...tinggal mintak je lagi...hehehehehhe

ok meh kita tgk kalau kat negara fadang fasir ni apa yg menjadi pilihan hati mokcik2 dan kakak2 di sini eh untuk hari lebaran ( pakaian melaram di rumah aje ok...keluar kena pakai abaya hitam tu jugak)...jom tgk!

ni baru sikit ni...hehe glamer tak? belum masuk baju2 ala hollywood dia... :)

A Fool

I'm sure most of us dah penah terbaca ataupun mmg follow Islamic Thinking kan? Today i've found something worth sharing because dlm diam kadang2 kita pun TERbuat jugak... so nak letak kat sini lah sebangai peringatan untuk diri sendiri di masa depan kalau2 terforgot...


A fool may be known by 6 things:

1.) Anger, without cause.
2.) Speech, without profit.
3.) Change, without progress.
4.) Inquiry, without object.
5.) Putting trust in a stranger.
6.) Mistaking foes.

Salam Ramadhan Kareem

Selamat berpuasa!

picture from google.

WTF? Saya tak mencarut okeh..hehe

Pada suatu hari yg sgt sibuk, datang la si pretty princess aka kakak ke dapor sambil membawa satu soalan yg sgt saspen. Maknya pula sedang buat2 sibuk menyediakan makan ptg ( aka membaking tak tentu hala dgn harapan anak2 mkn keknya walaupun kena paksa, hehe).

"Mommy, WTF tu apa?".

Dgn muka yg maintain konon tak gabra, ( dlm hati,OMG! mana dia dpt pulak perkataan ni...adoiii..).

"Mana kakak dgr benda tu?"."

Z ckp kat kakak kat facebook chat." si Z tu mcm setahun je beza umur ngan si kakak ni, mana pulak dia dpt ni.

So terpaksa la maknya explained kat kakak. "Tu bad words tu kakak, kakak tak boleh ckp benda tu, tak baik..."

" Welcome to facebook tu bad words eh mommy?"

Haaaaaaa? Dlm hati,perghhh legaaaaaaaaa....hahahaha

p/s: inilah si kakak when she was only 3 years old.

Beruntungnya kita lahir kat Malaysia!

When my friend told me about how her mat salleh friend dok cerita kat dia pasal The 10 Exotic Fruits You Have to Eat Before You Die, dia ketawa terbahak-bahak; kenapa? makcik pun nak tahu so makcik pun carik la kat pakcik google, jumpe la kat BBC Home, meh kita baca article org ni tulis;

Traveling the world is just brilliant, but to some people the world is just commuting from one side of their TV to a nice room with more channels and all you can eat buffet. Not that I have anything against it, but this is definitely not my style of doing things.

To me, traveling is just another synonym for curiosity, exportation and definitely stepping out of ones comfort zone.

What better way to connect with the local culture than with food ? if you think about it, our whole life cycle spins around food, it always plays a major role in big evens in our lives : in big celebrations, weddings, grief, birthdays, religious holidays…and the list goes on.

Here’s quick list I came up with of 10 exotic fruits you have to try before you’ll “kick the bucket” :

1. Durian – well, there’s a reason I chose Durian to be at the top of the list. Probably because of its ‘bad PR’. Here’s the thing… it stinks. In Singapore it is banned due to it’s strong spell .No doubt about it, that this large, green ,spike-shaped fruit smells, but it blends really nicely with coconut milk. It’s inner yellow part (the part that we eat) , is extremely soft and has a great texture.

As a fellow traveler described it once “ it’s like eating your favorite ice-cream in the toilet”

2. Mangosteen – mangosteen is a bit like a natural kinder egg. This purple persimmon-like shaped tropical fruit is a bit deceiving. Sticking your fingers through it’s flesh to revels a juicy purple texture that holds 4 beautifully shaped white cloves that taste very sweet. Buy a kilo in any Asian local market and there’s a good chance that you’ll finish most of it before you get into your car.

3. Snake Fruit (Salak) – definitely one of the coolest fruits in their shape i’ve seen. the fruit earned its name from it’s brownish prickly and scaly skin. The fruit itself is yellow and is in the size of a small lychee. However the exciting part is the taste. Snake fruit has a taste that is a mixture between jack fruit, apple lychee with a sour kick to it, very interesting to try!

4. Tamarind- not one of the sexiest looking fruits you’ll encounter, but definitely and important one. it’s brown pod reveals in it a brown pasty texture and seeds. Although it has a bit of a sour taste. tamarind is used widely in the different cuisines around the world (African, Asian, Latin) to make curries, drinks, desserts and more. Its health benefits and high nutrients made it popular in nature shops in the west.

5. Rambutan – one of the funkiest looking fruits I’ve seen (reminds me a bit of ‘Animal’ from the ‘Muppet Show‘) . Rambutan is a rare cuisine of the famous Lychee without the high dose of sweetness that lychee has. It basically looks like a red-green’ish silicon light bulb that someone decided to sell in the market. It’s hard peel doesn’t’ come out that easily, so you’ll have to use your nails but it’s such a treat when you do. To my opinion Rambutan is one of the best things to eat in the hot season in Asia. …cool it in the fridge for a couple of hours and take a juicy bit from it.

6. Jack Fruit-is definitely one of my favorite fruits! it grows mainly in South East Asia and if I remember right is one of the largest fruits in the world!. one fruit could reach up to 36 kg! (~80 pounds). The cool part is that it grows from the trunk of the tree and not from it’s leafs of branches. Although it’s mixed by foreigners many times with Durian due to it’s size and prickly green skin. it has a completely different taste and texture. it’s sweet flavor makes it a fantastic snack or and easy base for deserts and even curries. (not to mention that from 36 kg of a fruit you can feed a village! .

7. Dragon Fruit- Although Dragon fruit’s flavor is very settled, it’s shape and color makes you feel like you were born a king!it is more than a nice decorative fruit. the color and texture feels like the gods were tripping when they created this fruit… it’s just remarkable!. you can peel purple skin of the fruit quite easily. Doing so will reveal the white edible part, which is oval in its shape and white with black seeds. I’ve recently stumbled upon a purple kind as well. As for the flavor, as mentioned earlier ,it is very settled so this fruit could be perfect for you muesli lovers out there.

8. Passion Fruit- The passion fruit is definitely in the top 3 of our image of a tropical island (among with coconut and pineapple) it’s oval shaped peel reveals a juicy interior full of green yellowish seeds. passion fruits have been used for years to enrich tropical drinks’ flavors and in many desserts. I figure that if Garden of Eden ever existed, Adam took a bite from a passion fruit and not an apple.

9. Carambola (star fruit) -This yellow crunchy-juicy fruit got it’s name from it’s star-like shape. it is extremely rich in vitamin C and can be great for fruit salads, juices or eating it raw (my favorite of the 3 ). Although there are 2 kinds (sweet and sour) of Carambola the sour one is more common to find.

10. Langsat – a small oval shaped fruit, double the size of a grape. Its clear grape like flesh has a bit of an acidic-sweet . very nice fruit to eat in a hot day.

p/s: durian mmg sedap pun, gambar amik dr wardahilmu.blogspot.com ye.TQ

Mostly buah2 tu ada kat Malaysia kan.
Beruntung tak kita duduk kat malaysia? hehe

Frankly speaking

Saya jenis yg cakap direct to the point,jenis2 very frank, maybe tak reti lapik2 byk sgt, try sebaik mungkin untuk ckp tanpa bagi sakit hati tapi nak jugak point tu sampai...apa rasa, itu ucap, kadang2 mungkin ada yg sakit hati, senang kata tak pandai bercakap sgt lah...tak reti nak tipu, dan mungkin bila tak reti nak tipu maka tak pandai la menjaga hati agaknya kan? tapi apa beza saya dgn org yg ckp selembut kapas tapi semua tu perli semata2 atau pun tidak ikhlas? tapi org mcm ni maybe pandai berkata2 thus ramai yang tak sakit hati agaknya kan? maybe lebih bagus? Kenapa saya buat entry ni? saya pun tak tahu..hehehe

photo from The National Geography ( takde kaitan ngan entry...:P )

Sales, Sales, Sales!

Sales everywhere! mak aii...pening la mak!

p/s: gamba dr hp je, okeh, so the colours are not so vibrant looking as the real one.


Ni baru tgk-tgk jam, belum tgk mcm2 benda lainn, uhhhh pening2! hehe

Friends

and now suddenly I want to write about friends..
hmm friends...what do you think of friends? I consider myself to have a few good friends, Alhamdulillah.. But what makes one a good friend?

I want to share something that I've read last night after eating a sinful slice of chocolate and cheese marble cake, yes, nak baca buku mesti rasuah sikit dgn a slice of what we called a comfort food, baru mata mau bukak busat2..

p/s: sorry la quality gambar kurang, this one yg telah dipotong cakenya, I'm using my hp


Ok let's read;

" there are three types of companions: one who is as essential as food and cannot be done without.The second type is like medicine, used at some times, but not at other times. The third is like a disease, it is always unneeded. However, one might be tested with the latter type, even though there is no comfort or delight in accompanying them." { Al-Ma'mun }

Tgk dlm tu pun ada sebut food and comfort, hahahaha mcm tau tau je lepas makan that chocolate cake...

Anyway, have you thought about which kind of friends you have around you?

A Beautiful Doa

Hari ni sesambil tunggu the Suboh prayer... ye kat sini kena tunggu sbb dia awal, kalau tak sah2 tak boleh bangun...hehehe sesambil tunggu sesambil buat kuih kacang plus bakar bread and butter puddings untuk a birthday party, sesambil tu layan la http://islamicthinking.tumblr.com/ ( ye saya tak pandai buat link...dah try tapi tak jadi, mintak tunjuk ajar..:))

seronok la den apo laie... dah lama mencarik doa secantik ni... sebab ini pun yg selalu nak doa tapi tak pandai2 nak susun ayat... Alhamdulillah, syoknya..
mari kita share!

"Oh Allah, teach me to love others just like I love myself, teach me to judge myself just like I judge others. And if I have wronged anyone,give me the courage to apologize, and if anyone wronged me, give me the courage to forgive because you have taught me that forgiveness is the highest level of strength and revenge is the highest level of weakness. And I ask you not to forget me in your forgiveness♥*

gambar google je

nanti lepas masak2 tu siap, nak try upload gambar2 pulak... hopefully menjadilah pengUPLOADpan itu! ( is there such a word?) haha nasiblahh.

oh no!

wahhhh, it is almost 3 years! mmg nampak sgt tak de idea, what to do..hehehe. I really wanna write but i just do not know how to start,
ok lah let me introduce to u org2 yg akan selalu disebut didalam blog ini...hehe tu pun kalau berjaya start menulis entry lahh... anak2 gue, kakak and adik, and my hubby, Mr. N. For the time being, we r living outside Malaysia sbb Mr. N ni keje dia mmg kat luar semedang. Dedulu keje kat negara2 Asia tenggara dan semenjak dua menjak umur dah meningkat muda, maka destinasi yg paling hampir dgn Rumah Tuhan menjadi pilihan....hikhik...
apa lagi eh? tetapi kitorang, I mean me, kakak and adik will be going home soon sbb mommynye nak sambung balik pembelajaran yg putus di tgh jalan...tapi Mr. N tu tak tau la bilanye nak balik...
Hari ni kakak and adik takde kat rumah sbb pegi sleepover rumah kawan dorang, maka mommy pun dapat la duduk relax tanpa buat apa apa, the best part bila Mr.N pun tak balik makan lunch!! yihuuuuuu tak yah masak u...heheheh
haishhh bila nak mandi ni....ahaks.